Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Starting High, Ending Low

It took me four tries to type the title correctly - does that tell you about my day? Meh... It started at 5:30 this morning which is basically the middle of the night to me. Anything after midnight and before 8am is a coma blur. Eric had to be at the Sacramento airport at 7:30 this morning so he could go to Vegas today. Sounds fun, but not for him. After he left I was so jittery at being conscious before 8 slash nervous about Eric being in the air that I couldn't get back to sleep. So I stayed up.

It was good. I got all kinds of things done. Including this layout, which has an R rating for some potty language. Beware.



On a serious note, though, it's a topic that I've always wanted to explore but have been hesitant about. Yes, my dad was/is an alcoholic and though I haven't had any regular contact with him for several years now, his addiction is something I live with everyday. As a teen there was always the lure of drinking parties that I staunchly resisted because of the negative results of alcohol that I had witnessed firsthand. It always scared me a little that I might become dependent on it, the way my dad did. I wanted to have fun, just like everyone else, but what if?? Then in college I began to have exposure to "casual drinkers" and came to realize that alcohol did not equal bad so long as you handled yourself responsibly and only drank in moderation. I learned what I could handle, when to say no, and remarkably, have come out unscathed. I actually feel like a much stronger person because of all of the crap he put us through - it makes it much easier to pick my battles, knowing what's worth it and what's not, and staying calm in the face of disaster. I had my mom and sis through it all and without that who knows where I'd be... Not scrapbooking, that's for sure!

On a lighter note - I know, thank GOD, you're saying - yesterday was a mini milestone for this new season: Converse Day Numero Uno! Anyone who knows me knows I live in flip flops - always have - but at even the slightest hint of a thought of a chill in the air, flash bang on go the "real" shoes! Love em love em love em! And I need a new pair...hint....hint...



Also, tomorrow is a new challenge day over at the All About Me Challenge Board! It's a pretty good one, too, so take a look at what we designers have come up with and get ready to scrap!

Okay, loooong day for me, topped off with Eric forgetting he asked for a "big" dinner tonight and eating with the guys instead, then coming home for 2.7 seconds before leaving to go to the shop to work on his car. Grumble moan harumph.... Off to eat cold pasta. Carbs. Dinner. Finally. OOOOH!! And Jeff's on tonight! YAY!

3 comments:

  1. Great layout Britt. Such a heartfelt story. And a difficult childhood you must have had. Thanks for sharing!

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  2. Britt, your layout and story are amazing - and the one that you did for the challenge is just as awesome. I love your style x

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  3. This is beautifully created and written!

    BRAVO for your work, and most importantly, your strength!

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